Monday 31 December 2018

At the ending of 2018

A Reflection -

Highlights of 2018

  • A visit to Birmingham to see places not seen for 40+ years.
  • A visit to Southport and Liverpool seeing the Antony Gormley statues at Crosby Beach
  • A holiday in Crete
  • A new job
  • Swanwick Writer's Summer School
  • Visiting an Aunt I have not seen for 40+ years who lives in Spain
  • A trip to Anglesey with a friend
  • My nephew's wedding
  • Times with family and friends
  • Books read and reviewed
And, the other side of the coin
  • Coping all year with ill health
  • Family and friends with major health issues
365 days fly by don't they and yet at the time of each day life is a slow, daily opportunity to do your best, whether at work or at home.  Living with pain makes one appreciate the small things of life and gratitude that you can at least walk, talk, hear, see etc and never-ending sympathy and admiration for those less able.   

My focus has been drawn away at times from my goal, to be a published author, however I have managed book reviews, writing for a local magazine, blogs etc.  I have my first novel out to two or three publishers at the moment and am still editing and working on novel two, albeit slowly.  Chipping away and enjoying the process.

Christmas brought lovely gifts, family time and news of a great-nephew or niece to bring joy next year.  

I hear many a grumble about social media and the affect it has on some people who fall prey to abuse, negative comments and seedy romance seekers.  However, used appropriately I feel it is, in some cases, not only a life-saver but for many a place to find support and positivity, genuine care, fun and a platform for sharing goals and life issues with trusted friends that one perhaps will never meet.  People fighting all sorts of cancers, battling with mental health or life changing circumstances as well as great cooks, writers, political activists, animal and nature lovers, etc etc all contribute to my daily 'check in' and lift my spirits.  Maybe I spend a little too much time on this where I could be pursuing my goal but then I would miss out on this wonderful community that share insights into their passions
and interests.  What a rich world it is.

Well now I stand at the gateway to a NEW YEAR and a NEW START.  I don't make resolutions but I have a new MANTRA that I began whilst exercising on a daily basis.  I have it written above my writing space and on my heart.  Whereas 'perseverance pays off' was once my motto I also believe that 'determination' is a wonderful thing to have.  It gives FOCUS, DRIVE, HOPE, POSITIVITY and inspires others to think about how they can be a better self.

To those who follow me on my BLOGs - thank you for your time and interest.  I hope 2019 brings you unexpected joys and a spirit of determination in times that are not as you would wish for.



Sunday 9 December 2018

The Sciatica Journey




April 2018 – I attended my local hospital with a back sprain.  I was in agony and thought I had broken my coccyx bone.  A Senior Nurse Practitioner was less than sympathetic when telling me “even if you have they wont do anything” and sent me away with a prescription for painkillers. 



Six weeks later I was feeling better.  I was due to start a new part-time job as a Lunchtime Supervisor at a local primary school.  On the third day there I was asked to assist a colleague in moving a bench.  It wasn’t heavy but I knew straight away I should not have done it.  And so began The Sciatica Journey.



To say it was painful is an understatement.  Anyone who has had it will tell you.  I heard tales of walking sticks, six months off work, couldn’t get in and out of cars, depression, injections in spine etc etc.  Mornings were the worst having lain all night the first thing I needed to do was move my right leg from side to side to ‘wake it up’ as it felt like a ‘dead leg’.  Putting it out of bed onto the floor and getting to the bathroom felt excruciating and I hobbled like a 90 year old woman.  It bought tears to my eyes with the pain traveling rapidly from my heel up to my sacrum.  A day of pain in my leg, buttock and back followed.  And that was every day for several months.



I finally got a Physiotherapy appointment at my local hospital where an explanation of what the sciatic nerve was like using a skeleton to demonstrate.  Knowledge for me is half the battle as otherwise my brain goes to the worse case scenario imagining all sorts of terrible things.  I also educated myself via the internet, magazine articles, The Sciatica Handbook by Bill Habets 
and treated myself to other means of helping aides as painkillers and anti-inflammatory tablets just weren’t touching it.  I was prescribed Gabapentin and later an anti-depressant drug that helped calm the nerve - I had bad reactions to both of these so I abandoned all prescribed medications and went ‘natural’.  I ate fresh pineapple every day – a natural anti-inflammatory; drank chamomile tea; ate as much fruit and vegetables I could and bought a digital watch to count my daily steps.  Walking and fresh air have helped lift the mood.  Paracetamol and other available ‘over the counter’ tablets were taken to get me through the hour at school.  Resting with legs up has helped too.





  • Hot and cold treatment – an ice block became my new best friend.  Freezing the pain allowed easier movement but was very temporary.  Heat pad belts were also very useful at the beginning giving relief and felt assurance I was ‘treating’ my back.  A cosy hot water bottle placed either under my leg or buttock whilst sitting or in bed was another comfort.  I also used heat cream or an ice gel but these were less effective.



  • Private Physiotherapy sessions x 3 at two different locations.  These gave me more reassurance in the diagnosis and exercises to help.  I have done these religiously for the whole time – two or three times a day.  Mornings have been taken up with the routine of rising, taking a warm bath, exercising, dressing, and massaging my back, butt and leg with oil.
  • A bed of nails mat – in my exercise regime I lay on my yoga mat and this - 
    hoping for relief.  I think the thought was that it may act like acupuncture, I’m not sure of the benefits but when you are suffering you try anything to relieve it.
  • Pain gun –When I started using this I noticed a change in my thought patterns.  I began to repeat a positive statement over and over in my head at the end of each exercise session.
  • Tennis ball – I was advised to roll this across my periformis muscle (in buttock) which I did.  Also rolling it under the ball of my foot where the Sciatic nerve ends.
  • Jacuzzi.  I continued my membership at the leisure centre and although I did less and less in the gym (no weight lifting or strenuous exercises) I kept going.  A few times the tears would not stay in my eyes.  I swam of sorts, I couldn’t do much but enjoyed floating.  I used the Jacuzzi which has been a lovely relief of pain.
  • MRI Scan – this showed I had two bulging discs and degeneration of spine bones (old age).  I requested a copy of the report to take to the Osteopath.
  • Private Osteopath.  A trainer at the gym recommended her friend who would be gentle with me.  I had feared going to a Chiropractor worrying they would do more harm than good and was considering acupuncture.  However, I read up what the difference was between a Chiropractor and Osteopath and booked the latter.

The Osteopath gently stretched my lower spine with the palms of his hands; rocked me as I lay on my left side; manipulated the sciatic vein in my leg and did some cranial massage too.

A few days after the first session, the pain in my lower leg vanished.  After the second session, it hurt for a few days and I have to be honest and say my moods by now were not at their best.  Anger slipped out in frustration, I am only human and not super-human.  But that said there was more improvement.  The pain is receding and is now mostly only in my very upper leg, buttock and back.  I have hope that by Christmas and New Year this journey will be at its end.



As Sciatica is an ailment that can’t be seen or felt by anyone else it is hard for friends and family to empathize.  People who live permanently with disabilities were more sympathetic and those who have previously suffered sciatica could feel my pain when I sat with a cushion for support in their company.

I have experienced many physical and mental health issues in my life but this was by far the worst.  I wish I had gone to an Osteopath much sooner and can highly recommend this form of treatment for those who prefer holistic therapy.  With grateful thanks to Peter Andrews, Sutton Osteopathy, Sutton Coldfield, West Midlands.

To date (16.12.18) I still exercise daily, walk, have warm baths with Epsom Salts in, use the pain gun and none prescribed pain killers once a day.  

Thank you for taking time to read this blog.  If you know anyone who is suffering in this debilitating health issue please print it off - it may help them.